The dust storm was devastating. It screamed
its way under the car’s hood and suffocated the thing until the engine gave up
the ghost. Hardly mattered - I couldn’t see but five feet anyway and we’d been
crawling along already. I let the car coast down the very slight hill, praying
not to get rear-ended.
We were still on the road, but beyond that I
had no idea how far along the old highway I’d come. I imagined the endless
feathery shadow of the treeline to the right and vast fallow fields on my left,
but I couldn’t see them. Hoping there was a shoulder, I eased off the asphalt.
Gravel under the tires. Crunching, we came to a stop.
I took the key out of the ignition and blew
out a breath. What now? Millions of tiny impacts left minuscule scratches on
the windshield and windows. It was easy to think nature itself had it out
for me at that point. If I got out of the car, sand would pour into my mouth
and nose, burying me from the inside out. Or millions of primitive, microscopic
knives would rend my flesh down to the bone.
Or maybe I’d just get lost, mere feet from the
car but unable to locate it for the intensity of the parched storm. Wander into
the field, and die.
Had it been daytime, such morbid thoughts
might have seemed silly. At night, though, all this and more seemed reasonable.
I could just sit in the car, wait it out. The
dust storm would end eventually. Morning would come.
But was that a glimmer of light on the left?
Some lonely farmhouse, its porchlight a beacon for lost souls such as me.
Or, a will-o’-wisp’s arid cousin, patiently
waiting to lure me to that aforementioned dusty death.
After ten hours driving, no stops since a
cheap diner lunch in a no-name town, I admit that the chance for some human
company was the thing that pushed me out of the car door, leather jacket in
hand.
I pulled the jacket on, bombarded with sand as
a gust swooped in just to spite me. I almost skipped locking the car, then took
the moments of stinging pain to see to it. Praying for an empty road, I
sprinted through the void across the highway. I did not become road kill, and
the storm did not murder me.
There was a lull in the storm and I saw the
farmhouse’s porch light again. A breath of relief quickly earned me a mouthful
of grit. It wasn’t a farmhouse though. It was a full-blown manor.
The dust blew in again but I caught a glimpse
of the place first.
Old but maintained. Fresh white paint despite
the abuses of nature. A wrap-around veranda. Warm light from many
windows.
Someone lived there. Surely they would help
me.
I started toward the house, bumped into the
white picket fence before I saw it, then hopped over.
The sandstorm shied away from the manor and
visibility increased.
By the time I mounted the steps to the
veranda, I could see a whopping twenty feet instead of three, and motes of sand
struck my face only infrequently. Perhaps there was a stand of trees or some
other windbreak on that side of the house. Whatever the source of protection, I
welcomed it.
The double doors of the manor’s entrance were
a block of brown among all the white. Light shone through a long, red,
rectangular window set above the doors. So the place had once been a… house of
pleasure. Keeping these windows was typically considered cute - a sign of
character - but I’d always thought it strange.
After a short hesitation, I knocked. The
knocker was a looping, sinuous sculpture of brass that suggested a snake
without being one. The polished metal clunked and the knock resounded in the
heavy wood of the door.
I waited.
When there was no answer I began to consider
just going back to the car rather than knocking again. Clearly someone was
home, but if they were unwilling to answer the door, I didn’t want to be a
pest. I glanced down the porch. There was a pair of rocking chairs. It would be
impolite to sleep the night in one without permission, but with a storm like
this raging on, perhaps I would be forgiven.
I was still debating when I heard the sound of
a latch, and the left side door opened.
The man standing in the entryway looked sleepy
and confused at first. He scanned me from feet to head, seemed to have a
thought, then breathed out and deflated as if resigned to something unsavory.
“It’s a nasty one out there, stranger,” he
said, pulling the door open further and stepping aside. “Shake off the dust and
come on in.”
I did so, and he shut the door behind me.
“Thank you so much,” I said, searching out his
eyes. “You have no idea how --”
“Oh no, I do,” he said. “If it gets any worse
it’ll rip a man’s skin off.”
I laughed hoarsely. “I’d been thinking the
same thing.”
He grunted and started down the short hall.
The man was a head shorter than me, solidly
built. A day’s worth of stubble covered his face. Thick, dark hair and eyes
that seemed perpetually shadowed. He almost fit the profile of a farmer, but
there was something still too urban, too polished about him for me to believe
that.
He turned right into a den with two large,
comfy looking recliners and a long leather couch. A classic baseball game
played on a very large TV mounted to the wall.
“Have a seat,” he said, gesturing to one of
the recliners. “I’ll get you some water.” When I moved to obey, gratefully
sinking into the still plush but well-loved cushions, the man nodded and exited
the room through a door on its far side. His voice came back to me from
wherever he’d gone.
“What’s your name, stranger?” he asked. I
raised my froggy voice so he could hear me in the other room.
“Shane,” I said. “Shane McLeary. Thanks for
letting me in. Really, I can’t --”
He cut me off again. “Alright, Shane. I’m
Edmund.”
Edmund. Not Ed or Eddie.
The room was a one hundred percent standard
man-cave. The giant TV, bulky furniture, and heavy bookcases built into the
walls. There was a stand of pipes on one of the shelves, and a sweet lingering
scent of tobacco. A family crest on one wall, decorative swords crossed behind
a shield with a spear-wielding knight on it. Edmund’s dirty boots sat by the
portal leading back to the hallway.
He returned shortly with a tall glass of
water, dripping with condensation. He gave it to me, then fetched one of his
pipes and a lighter, and sank into the leather couch with a groan from the
glossy brown cushions.
I drank the water, washing the grit from my
mouth. Edmund lit his pipe and blew out a few smoke rings.
“Storms have been getting worse lately,” he
said.
“They’re bad everywhere,” said I, “or so I
hear.”
“Hard to know what to believe these days,
isn’t it?”
“Everybody lies,” I said.
Edmund grunted and nodded. “You smoke, Shane?”
“No thank you,” I answered. I used to, then
decided life was too short. I wasn’t going to say that to a stranger though.
Edmund shrugged. “Might as well, I figure.
Smoke, sand, water - something’s gonna get me one of these days.”
I just nodded.
“You almost made the next town, you know.”
Millville. I’d known I was close. Made the
engine’s failure hit even harder.
“If the storm lets up, you might even make it
before dawn,” he said. “But if not, you’re free to stay. It’s… just me around
here. My room’s downstairs so you’ve got six to pick from on the second floor.”
“Thank you,” I said. “I really appreciate it.”
“People have to pull together in these weird
times, don’t you think?”
“Agreed.”
He pulled the pipe away from his mouth and
froze in a way that raised my hackles, glancing at me sideways.
“You’re not here to kill me, are you Shane?”
The sudden, incongruous question threw me for
a loop. “Um, no. No I’m… not that kind of guy.” I chuckled nervously, then saw
the smirk growing on one side of Edmund’s mouth.
He laughed. My chuckle grew less nervous.
“You city boys, I tell ya,” he wound down to a
chortle, then took a puff off his pipe. “Oh, I used to be one too. Then I came
out here, and I just couldn’t leave.”
“I can imagine,” I said. Edmund smirked at
this but I didn’t know why. “It must have been even better in the old days.”
“Must have,” he said.
There was silence, and I started to wonder if
I should make more small talk. What did Edmund do for a living? I’d tell him I
was an accountant. Was he retired? Any family? But there he sat, smoking and
studying the ancient baseball game, stone-faced. I got the distinct feeling he
didn’t really want to talk. Maybe I should excuse myself to turn in.
Edmund saved me from hesitation.
“You can head to bed, if you want, Shane,” he
said. “I know I’m not great company. Been on my own a long time, you know?
Probably out of practice.”
“I uh, I am pretty tired. I’ve been driving
since eight a.m.”
“Brain dead and saddle-sore,” he said. “I know
the feeling. Well, like I said, you can head upstairs and pick whatever room
you like. Each pair shares a bathroom, not that it matters with only you here.”
I stood and picked up my water glass, took a
sip. “Thank you, seriously, Edmund. I’ll find a way to pay you back for the
kindness.”
He waved the notion away, eyes still locked on
baseball. “Forget about it. Hey, feel free to raid the kitchen if you need
something. If I don’t see you in the morning, nice to meet you.”
“You too,” I smiled. Leaving the room felt
awkward, but so would lingering. I committed to the former.
The hallway outside Edmund’s den led around a
corner to the stairs. Old but solid, they creaked as I ascended. The long hall
upstairs was carpeted in thick crimson and the doors to all the rooms were
closed. Classical nude paintings graced the walls, frames ornate but worn with
age. I figured Edmund had inherited the place from an elderly relative. Could
it even have been from the home’s original mistress?
I picked the nearest bedroom and opened the
door. Dust scratched at the window behind its bronze-colored curtains. The bed
was a heavy old four-poster, and there was a mahogany dresser, a side table,
and a rocking chair. The door to the bathroom stood open. A shower was tempting,
but for now I closed and locked the door.
I draped my leather jacket on the side table,
set my water glass down next to it, and sat on the edge of the bed. The
mattress sank down further than I expected and I almost fell backward. There
were more paintings in the room, but I didn’t recognize them. Two on each wall,
bronze-painted frames in contrast to the gaudy crimson and white patterned
wallpaper that matched the carpet.
The images were painted in a similar style to
the baroque pieces in the hallway, but seemed to depict more modern scenes.
Each painting featured a nude.
Two of them commanded my attention.
The first was of a woman walking down the
middle of a night time street in Paris, Eiffel Tower looming on the skyline.
She was facing away from me and carried a black umbrella in one hand, held over
her head to ward off a slanted rain. She was in mid stride, bare skin gleaming
with rain water despite her umbrella. The only other figures were a homeless
man reclining on the steps of a townhouse, staring into his cup and oblivious
to the strolling beauty, and a posh businessman whose gaze had been captured by
her.
The second painting depicted a room much like
the one I was in. An extremely muscular man lay in the bed, bare-chested and
otherwise covered by clinging sheets. A slender woman in sheer white
nightclothes hovered over him, pressed against the ceiling as if by a reversal
of gravity. The artist had been brilliant, suggesting with a very subtle
tension in the man’s prodigious muscles that he desired to rise to his
counterpart on the ceiling.
If there had been any doubt in me about what
kind of place this had once been, these images dispelled it.
It made me feel strange about lying down in
the bed, but it wasn’t like the house was still in business. Someone had long
since cleaned and pressed the sheets and duvet. A slight musty tint to the air
suggested that no one had been in the room in a long time, except perhaps to dust
it since the surfaces seemed to be freshly cleaned.
I lay back horizontally across the bed, not
ready yet to commit to retiring. I dozed off anyway and woke with a sharp
intake of breath.
I sat up, momentarily disoriented by the
unfamiliar setting. I checked my phone for the time - I had slept for two
hours. The crick in my neck agreed with the clock.
I stood and went to the window, pulled back
the bronze curtains. The dust storm still pelted the glass, and so all I could
see was a light brown haze ringed in shadow. I hoped my car was alright.
I finished my glass of water and my mouth
requested more. Much more.
Would I disturb my host if I went downstairs?
But he’d said to feel free. Accepting his hospitality might be more polite than
shutting myself in. I decided to go.
The creak of the stairs followed me down and I
feared to bother Edmund. But when I entered the kitchen from the hallway and
looked through into the den, he was out cold, stretched across the leather
couch. A batter whose name I didn’t know hit a home run on the baseball game.
Edmund had a modern fridge and I filled up my
water from the spout in the door. Curious, I opened the fridge to see what
Edmund had stocked.
The door shelves were full of beer bottles,
mostly Coors Original but a healthy variety of oddball craft beers. There was a
bottle of white wine that looked like it had been there for a decade. Then
apples, cheese, bread, and a large glass tupperware with some kind of
leftovers. Beer sounded alright but I refrained.
I stood at the island in the middle of the
kitchen and sipped my water, listening to the game on the TV. Vaguely I wished
that Edmund was awake. The strange, dark night and disorienting nap had left me
feeling soft and lonely. Conversation, even awkward conversation, might be
nice. I drummed my fingers on the counter, and then I heard something.
The creak of a door, something soft scraping
against wood, and a series of light taps, rapidly fading.
I wouldn’t have pegged Edmund for a cat
person. I looked down the hallway past the stairs before deciding to check it
out. Maybe the cat would keep me company.
The lights were off in the hall so that the
far end was mostly in shadow. There I found a slightly open door, darkness
beyond. When I pulled the door open further it creaked and I stiffened,
foolishly guilty about exploring while Edmund slept. Past the door there was a
stairway leading down. I’d always loved places that were old enough to have
basements, and I couldn’t resist checking it out. I wasn’t about to go down in the
dark though, so I felt around on the wall inside until I found the light
switch.
The light source was down below, around a
corner and nothing more than a faint yellow. It was enough to make out the
steps though, and so I started down, watching the shadows for the cat.
It didn’t appear, nor did I accidentally step
on it, but I did notice that the corners of the wooden steps were worn smooth.
I reached the bottom of the stairs. No sign of
the kitty. The yellowed glass lamp hanging from the low ceiling illuminated a
stone-walled room. The blocks in the walls were polished grey stone and mortar
that sealed in a permanent chill. The floor was nicely laid concrete. There was
a wine fridge and several stacks of boxes lined up against two of the walls.
Washing machine and dryer. A half dozen retired paintings had been leaned up in
a row in one corner.
At first I thought the cat must be hiding
behind the boxes, but then I saw the shadowy alcove in the far corner. I
approached the little nook to peer in. More steps, these of stone, leading
down. The stairwell was dark and it breathed cool air on me. I thought I heard
the patter of the cat’s feet on the steps.
Having come this far out of mere curiosity, it
seemed harmless to continue down.
Basements were uncommon enough - a
sub-basement was too rare not to peek at. Most likely it was a bomb shelter, or
perhaps it had once hidden slaves or prohibited liquor.
A lungful of the air gave me a chill, but I
went down anyway.
Dim electric lamps were bolted to the stone
walls at steady intervals, providing just enough light not to misstep and kill
myself with a seemingly endless tumble. I’d expected one or two full turns of
the spiral, but the stairs went on. I began to reconsider my choice. Then my
feet touched the floor of a large, dark room whose far walls could not be
reached by the dim light from the stairwell.
I saw no light switches, no hurricane lamps or
candles, and I had no fire of my own.
Surely my trepidation concerning the dark
before me was childish, but then what good would exploring deeper be if I could
not see?
I turned around to head back up, then heard a
loud scraping sound and the footsteps of a man. A wave of guilt washed over me
and I felt like a trespasser.
“Edmund?” I called. It must have been him, but
he didn’t answer. The footsteps grew louder. Their heaviness disturbed me at
first, but then I remembered Edmund’s boots. Still, I backed away from the
stairwell. I could flee into the darkness if I had to.
Then came Edmund’s voice. My shoulders relaxed
and I let out my breath.
“Shane?”
“Here,” I said.
I heard him sigh. “I hoped you’d stay asleep.
You come down for a snack or something?”
He was closer now, just a few spiral turns
away.
“Just water,” I said. “Thought I heard your
cat. I followed it and got curious. I was actually just about to head back up
so, why don’t I follow you?”
Edmund hit the floor and stopped. He squinted
slightly at me. “I’m afraid we can’t go back up.”
My stomach felt as if it had been filled up
with sand. He’d trapped me down here. He was some nutcase that took in weary
travellers only to slice them open and eat them in his weird, cold basement. I
tried to keep my cool.
“I barely made it through before the door
closed,” he continued. “And lucky for you that I did.”
I couldn’t understand what he meant by this
and all I could think was that I needed to get past him somehow. He saw me
twitch.
“It’s shut,” he insisted, but I was
already sprinting past him, an arm out to ward off any attack. I heard him
growl lowly but he did not try to stop me.
I bounded up the steps two or more at a time,
almost slipped twice, but kept my feet. When I reached the top of the stairwell
I found only cold, bare stone. The way back was indeed shut.
My experience with movies and books told me
there must be a secret switch or button here somewhere, as silly as it sounded.
I pushed at the stones in the wall foolishly, searched the ceiling with my
eyes. Nothing. Edmund was right - the way was shut. If he could open it, it
certainly didn’t sound like he was willing to. I started back down.
“I tried to tell you,” he said.
“What’s this about?” I asked. He pursed his
lips. “You joked about me being a killer. What about you?”
Edmund shook his head. “It’s not like that.”
“You’re not exactly restoring my confidence,
Ed,” I said. He prickled. But I was done being polite. Murderer or not, Ed here
must be up to no good.
“It’s just how it works, Shane,” he said. “The
only way out is through.”
“Through what?” I asked.
“Just through.”
Not very helpful. The dread in my gut fueled a
rising anger. Socking Edmund in the face might not open the door, but it would
sure feel good.
“So what, I’m supposed to just trust you?
Follow you through?”
“Trust or not,” he shrugged. “I wouldn’t want
to go first though, if I were you.”
I turned away from him, exasperated. “What
kind of place is this anyway?”
“No word for it,” he said. “But I can tell you
it’s not good.”
His statement chilled me more than the
subterranean air. If it wasn’t good, what was it?
I started to ask this out loud, pointless as
it was, but Edmund was already on the move. Afraid to lose him in the dark, I
followed him across the room.
As my eyes adjusted I found I could just
barely see him. It was enough to keep me close without accidentally colliding.
We came to a blacker darkness - a hallway? - and Edmund reached into a recess
in the wall. I imagined spiders and roaches crawling over a cobwebby lever like
in some old movie, but Edmund showed no such squeamishness.
He had retrieved a torch and now he lit it.
Good thing he was a smoker and had his lighter.
The flame grew quickly and illuminated his
face. He looked older than before, with wrinkles that I did not remember. Must
be an effect of the flickering light - campfire shadows.
I followed him into the hallway. It was long
and narrow. My weariness and confusion had dulled my mind and it took me long
moments to realize the torch had been both prepared and accessible. How often
did Edmund come down here? And why?
“Come on, Ed,” I said. He shot a sharp look
over his shoulder. “Edmund, sorry. Just tell me what this is, alright? Maybe
I’ll believe you’re not a psycho.”
“I don’t give a crap what you think of me,” he
said. I decided to keep calling him Ed after all. “Look, it’s an old place, alright?
Stuff that was here before anyone ever settled. Sometimes the secret door is
open back there, sometimes it’s not. I think the mechanism must be broken. But
it always closes after someone goes through.”
“Why couldn’t we just wait until it opened then?”
I asked, but Edmund shook his head.
“Might wait for days - I camped out in the
basement a couple times to find out. At least this way we can be out some time
tomorrow.”
“Tomorrow?” there was a shrill edge to my
voice that I didn’t like. I calmed myself.
“It’s a long way, man,” Edmund said. “Nothing
to do about it. What, you got somewhere to be?”
That shut me up. I didn’t really.
“No,” I answered. “Millville was just a stop.
I figured I’d hang there for a week or two. Get my bearings.”
The long, straight hall ended in a ‘T’ and
Edmund led us right through a series of shorter halls. There were heavy wooden
doors at irregular intervals. Some were simply barred, but others had rough
iron locks and handles. I wasn’t sure I wanted to know what was inside the rooms.
“Running away from something,” Edmund guessed.
“Seems like kind of a luxury these days.”
He was right on both counts. Crossing state
lines was an ordeal. The nasty weather didn’t help. I’d really thought my old
Jeep was hardy enough to make it if a storm were to catch me out, but I’d been
proven wrong. And about fleeing…
“It was a girl,” I said. I don’t know why.
Maybe I just wanted to share with someone since I hadn’t yet been able to.
“You’re running from a girl,” he stated,
deadpan.
I scoffed. “Not like that. I… I just had to
get out of there after things didn’t work out.”
“Sounds like a wuss move, man, I’m not gonna
lie.”
“Yeah well it was a small town. Her town. Her people.
No way was I going to have peace there, even though it wasn’t my fault.”
Edmund nodded and offered no more mockery.
We entered a short hall with an abrupt end.
There was another of those heavy, locked doors. An actual skeleton key hung on
a peg driven into the stone wall. Edmund fetched the key and unlocked the door,
then put the key back. It swung open with a prolonged squeak. Beyond were more
stairs.
“Aw, no. More stairs?” I complained.
“It won’t be the last descent,” Edmund said.
“Come on.”
I didn’t like it, but I followed.
“So why’d you break up?” Edmund asked as we
eased down the time-worn steps.
I hesitated but humanity got the better of me
and I confessed. “She just wanted things out of the relationship that I
couldn’t give.”
“Never heard that from a man before,” he said.
“Well it happens alright?”
He sniffed out a chuckle. “What was it? Get
married? Settle down and pop out six kids?”
I scratched the side of my head. “Kind of the
other way around. She wanted to live together, but she wouldn’t commit. I
wanted to…”
“You wanted to get married,” now he uttered a
full-bellied laugh. “Can’t tell you what kind of bullet you dodged, man. Lucky
for you.”
“Lucky? I loved her.”
“So what?”
“So marriage made sense.”
“You only think it makes sense.”
“And the guy living alone in a whorehouse
knows better?” I spat.
Edmund was silent for so long I thought that
maybe he wouldn’t speak at all anymore. Then he did.
“Yeah,” he said. “I do.”
We came to the next landing. It was a long,
wide hall. The central walkway was flanked by rows of fluted columns. Strips of
electric lighting shone down from the ceiling, but it was still too dim to
really see what was past the columns. I stuck close to Ed.
I hadn’t let go of the conversation yet.
“I don’t know… Call me a traditionalist but I
just couldn’t imagine spending our lives together without getting married,” I
confessed. Mom and Pop raised me in church and I’d never left. Actually, Mom
had warned me about Larissa. Guess I should have listened.
Edmund grunted, but after a moment he
responded. “Well, good for you, sticking to your guns.”
We seemed to be heading straight toward the
far end of the room, where another closed door awaited us. Edmund passed under
one of the dim yellow lightbulbs and I caught the glint of grays salted into
his otherwise dark hair. I hadn’t noticed the grays before.
“How long did it take you to map this place
out?” I asked.
Ed hesitated. At first I’d taken these pauses
as reluctance, but I was starting to see he was the kind of man who often chose
his words before speaking.
“There are maps in the house. They’re not
always legible - old, you know - but altogether they give you a good idea of
the layout. A dozen spelunking trips down and you know it like the back of your
hand. The main path, anyway. Now, quiet.”
We reached the door, which was barred. Edmund
lifted the bar and opened the door. We stepped through into a barely lit hall.
I wondered why Ed would bother taking the time to come down and shut all the
doors properly after a trip through. How often did this happen?
I started to ask but he waved me into silence
with a sharp gesture. The only reason we should need to be quiet was if…
“Is someone down here?” I whispered. He gave
me a hard look that wasn’t an affirmation but nevertheless shut me up.
The hall curved and bent around corners. I
couldn’t see a reason for this as there seemed to be no rooms or side passages
in this section of the complex. Perhaps it made sense in its original context.
Perhaps the structure had once been above ground, and the passing of ages had
buried it.
Dozens of turns brought us to a heavy door
made of iron bars. It was open, unlike all of the other doors, we’d passed
through, and I soon saw why. The locking mechanism had been smashed and ruined.
No point in shutting the door if that didn’t work.
“What is…” I started, then shut myself up. I
didn’t want to find out why Edmund had ordered silence.
We stepped through.
The hall beyond was straight and wide. In
keeping with the suggestion of the massive iron door, the hall was lined with
prison cells. We were in a dungeon.
Everything to this point had been fairly dry
and well-kept, but the dungeon lived up to its image. Water trickled from low
cracks in the walls and ran into drains in the unoccupied cells. Mould had
taken up residence in the branching lines of grout between stone blocks and the
tiny craters eaten away by moisture.
“Why on Earth is there a dungeon down here?” I
stage-whispered.
Edmund’s finger shot up to his lips again and
his eyes bore into me. Without words, he impressed upon me that the matter of
silence was one of life and death.
Edmund turned and stepped lightly. I followed
his lead.
The wall at the end of the line of cells had
been smashed to bits and a tunnel dug into the rock beyond. It was hard to tell
in the dim torchlight but I thought the ceiling in there was sloping downward.
Another several dozen paces and we were deep
into the wet throat of the tunnel. The ceiling was indeed dropping down on us.
With every step, it was a little closer to my head.
Then the stone brushed my hair, and then I had
to stoop to continue.
I almost asked how low it would get but held
my tongue.
I found out soon enough anyway, when Edmund
knelt and took a deep breath. With him out of the way I could see that the
tunnel compressed to a space maybe two feet high.
“Oh, no,” I said, but I did whisper.
Ed half-turned toward me. He pointed at the
torch, then drew a finger across his neck.
I know my eyes went wide as saucers. We’d have
to crawl through in pitch darkness. I backed up several steps. Me and tight
spaces did not mix.
Edmund held out his open palms and shrugged, What
do you want me to do about it?
I massaged the bridge of my nose. If Edmund
was to be believed, this was the only way through. I had no way of knowing if
that was a lie, but trying to find another way out alone could easily cost me
my life. There was no telling how many labyrinthine branches we had passed
behind all those closed doors.
I steeled myself. Phobias and hesitations
aside, I was no coward. I nodded to Edmund and he nodded back.
He held up the torch, It’s time for light’s
out, buddy. Then he rolled it against a dry patch of stone until it smouldered
and left us in darkness. Darkness but for the hellish red-orange glow deep in
the torch’s head.
As Edmund went prone and started to pull
himself into the tiny gap, I remembered my phone. But when I took it out of my
pocket and tried to wake it up, the screen stayed dark. So much for the
flashlight app. As if being buried under countless tons of stone wasn’t enough,
something down here was messing with electronics too. No wonder Ed hadn’t
brought a flashlight.
I wanted to share my observation, if only to
get his confirmation that this was another weirdness of the place, but I sensed
that he was entirely committed to the gap by now - he probably couldn’t even
hear me.
I knelt, took the largest breath I’ve ever
taken, went prone, and followed.
The constant tamping of probably deadly panic,
the crushing black, and the excruciatingly slow progress robbed me of all sense
of time. Only mounting thirst and hunger provided any hint that it was passing
at all.
At times the low ceiling scraped my back.
Water dripped onto my face. Things crawled across my bare ankles above the
loafer and I prayed they wouldn’t worm their way into my pant legs. My
hand would brush against the tunnel wall and loose dirt would fall. I feared to
make a noise, lest the whole thing cave in on us.
Several times weariness and sensory
deprivation begged me to give up. I could just lie there until I died. It was
unlikely Edmund would be able to rescue me even if he turned back to find me -
how would he pull me through? So my life was in my own hands.
The instinct for survival pushed me on.
After however many hours, a change finally
came. First it was a movement of the air, a breeze slipping past the invisible
Edmund up ahead. Then it was dim flashes of light in between the motions of his
crawling.
I thought I heard him whisper, We’re almost
there, but it could have been my imagination.
Then the light grew rapidly and Edmund
was out, on his knees, offering me a hand. I took it and slithered free.
We were in a small round room lit by
glass-shaded lamps. I could not tell how they were powered, but when I gave
thought to electricity I checked my phone again. Still dead.
I could see the ruin of what had once been a
doorway but was now filled with the rocks and dirt we had just crawled under.
Ed had faced away from me, waiting for me to
catch my breath so we could go on. His posture was different - he seemed to
slouch. We were both filthy and exhausted and I couldn’t blame him for the lack
of enthusiasm.
“How much further?” I asked softly. His voice
sounded raspy when he answered.
“It’s still a ways,” he said. “Next level
down, keep your eyes on me. Don’t take any side passages, no matter what you
see or hear, do you understand?”
I didn’t but I nodded, then remembered he
wasn’t looking at me. Why was he hiding his face?
“Yes,” I said. “Eyes on you. What’s the big
deal though? What’s ahead?”
“You wouldn’t believe me if I told you,” he
said.
“Try me,” I insisted. If the way forward was
dangerous, I wanted to know why. The mysteries of Edmund’s insane basement
complex had worn me thin. He didn’t reply and started to cross the room,
relighting the torch.
I caught up to him and put a hand on his
shoulder. It felt bony. I spun him around and gasped.
His face was emaciated, angular, his eyes
sunken and shadowed. His hair was thin and damp, now fully silvered.
It was Edmund, but starved, strung out, aged.
There was more to it, but I couldn’t say what.
He let me gawk for a moment, then cast his
eyes down in shame.
“Edmund,” I breathed. “What on Earth?”
“Like I said, you wouldn’t believe me. Come
on.”
He turned and I was too shocked to do anything
other than follow.
The small round room let out into another
tunnel of raw stone, this one intact. Within twenty paces it branched out into
a dozen other paths. Ed was certain about ours though - he never hesitated at a
junction.
We hit a steep decline and followed it down. I
couldn’t believe that going even deeper into the earth would ever result in our
escape. Yet I had no choice but to trust Edmund. I would rather have followed
him for another two days through the cursed labyrinth than backtrack through
the crawling tunnel alone.
We must have followed the descending tunnel
for a thousand feet. It got colder and colder. I furrowed my brow when I saw
that Edmund had begun to limp.
The sudden reappearance of architecture at the
bottom of the long decline shocked me. I’d assumed we were truly spelunking
from here on out.
Heavy blocks of grey stone framed out a large
doorway. In the portal - darkness but with the faintest hint of a rainbow haze.
I figured it was a trick of my eyes, like when you shut your eyelids really
tight and every color is superimposed on the black.
Flanking the open doorway were six columns
carved like totems, three on a side. At the base of each was a coiled snake,
and each depicted the heads of a hare, a dog, and a horse, stacked in that
order. The snakes seemed to slither up each column to bite the throat of the
creature at the crown. There was the bust of a lion, an ox, a man, an eagle, a
cardinal bird, and most shocking to my eyes, an alien. It had the elongated
head and large saucer eyes they were so typically depicted with.
I did not want to go through that door.
“Ed,” I said, “are you sure we have to go this
way?”
He held out his hands to indicate the wide
tunnel. There was nowhere else to go. I could climb back up a ways and try one
of the branches, but if it led to the surface, surely Edmund would have taken
us that way.
“I’m sorry,” I said. “It just looks…”
“Like I said, just stick with me,” he pointed
a firm finger at me. I nodded and gulped.
Edmund watched me for a moment, then turned
and stepped through the strange doorway, torch held aloft. Averting my eyes
from the wicked totems, I followed. The tunnel beyond the door was narrower than
where we’d been, claustrophobic. There were new branches of tunnel leading off
the center every few meters.
There was just enough light to see where we
were going, but it wasn’t all from the torch. I couldn’t tell where it was
coming from. Painted across the dark was the lingering suggestion of rainbow
lights, kaleidoscopic squares and triangles spinning in infinity. They turned
so slowly…
My feet led me off Edmund’s line and I
stumbled on a partially formed stalagmite. He halted and watched me recover. When
I looked at him I felt a sharp sense of embarrassment. Mere feet into the
tunnel and I’d already been led astray.
There was something wrong with these caves.
I signalled that I was okay and we continued.
We came to a junction of five identical
tunnels. Ed picked one on the left but I could not tell his criteria. The new
path wound down in a shallow spiral and my heart sank with the elevation.
Then, another straight tunnel with countless
branches of its own. This portion of the complex gave me the distinct
impression of a hive.
I heard something - the whisper of fabric. I
didn’t look.
A light patter of feet like the cat steps that
had led me to the basement to begin with. I watched Edmund.
Then a giggle. A young woman. It startled me
and I feared for her safety. I only refrained from looking because I realized
she wouldn’t be amused if she was in danger.
A form appeared in one of the side passages.
Edmund didn’t seem to notice. Despite the darkness I could tell she was lithe,
healthy, wearing a dress of sheer, clinging cloth. Platinum hair spilled over
her shoulders and bright eyes reflected the sourceless rainbow lights. She was
smiling at me.
I wanted her. We could rush down the tunnel
together and she would share with me her delights. We could linger there
forever, in a place as cold or hot as I liked, on fine linen or rough ground.
In my surrender she would offer me every
carnal freedom. Edmund was not invited and wouldn’t be able to find us.
Edmund. My eyes flicked over to him and I
realized he was further to my left than before. My feet had wandered
again.
The lithe woman stiffened in my peripheral
vision and then seemed to flit away. When I looked at where she had been, she
was gone.
“Ed…” I said.
“Eyes on me,” he ordered.
Then came the voices. They slipped across my
mind like memories of a dream and I could not recount what exactly was said,
but the suggested sensations lingered. There were the voices of all kinds of
people - men, women, children.
Some words inflamed me, others repulsed. It
was as if something was fishing in my mind. How to get the desired response, a
response of unrestrained desire? Each of my reactions served only to reveal my
weakness.
I watched Edmund through all of this, sweat
dripping from my brow, my face and hands clammy. He trudged on as if none of it
were happening.
The voices swirled, the vortex of them
contracted. Their timbre and character focused to a point, cascading from
merely female, to women my age.
They told me what felt like everything I’d
ever wanted to hear, from the innocent to the lascivious to the unimaginably
reprehensible. The words themselves were lost in a haze.
“Please --” I started to say. The extremes of
pandering pleasure would drive me mad if they didn’t cease.
Edmund heard me.
“Don’t talk to them,” he said. “They’ll get
you to look. We’re almost out.”
I knew he was right. I wanted to look. The
desire was so strong it made my eyes hurt to focus forward.
But as in the pitch black of our crawl through
the low tunnel, I prayed, I kept moving, and I endured.
I could see that the tunnel narrowed ahead.
There were fewer and fewer branches leading away from the center.
The voices grew louder and I braced myself for
screeching cacophony, but they became plaintive instead. Lonely, asking,
begging.
Then they receded.
We walked a ways further, deep into the
narrowed tunnel, with only the torch and that sourceless light to rely on.
Edmund slowed and barred my path with his arm.
“Careful,” he said.
We edged a little further forward before he
stopped us completely.
“Stairs,” he said, pointing down. Then he
pointed a few feet to his right. “Cliff. One misstep and it’s all over, got
it?”
I couldn’t imagine how going deeper yet again
would lead us out of this black hell, but any spirit I’d possessed had been
spent resisting the voices. I just nodded. My own voice had deserted me.
We started down the stairs.
I trailed a hand along the stone to my left, a
reassurance that there was more to the world than Edmund and the steps beneath
my feet. Stupidly I reached out to my right to prove the open air and my mind
reeled when there was indeed nothing there. Dizziness threatened to throw me
over the edge, but a deep breath and my left palm on cold dry stone brought my
senses under control.
Edmund’s limp grew more pronounced the further
we went and I worried about him, but I knew there was no stopping now. The only
way out was through.
We must have gone down a thousand feet when
pinprick lights flicked on in some distant firmament. They twinkled like fairy
gems, in every shade and hue like the rainbow light that had guided us here and
still suffused the air.
Far, far below a structure was illuminated. A
step pyramid lit by impossible crystalline lamps on stanchions at its corners.
The whole surface of the monument was plated in gold and engraved with strange
forms that I could not resolve.
On the pyramid’s flat top there was something
that looked like an altar near one corner, with the incongruous shape of a bed
opposite. Between was a low dais and something that looked like a throne.
“What is that?” I asked. My voice was hoarse.
“The seat of my mistress,” Edmund said. He
turned his face halfway back to me and I choked. The skin of his face hung
loose. His eyes were even more recessed, darker and bloodshot. His already
thinning hair seemed to have fallen out in patches. His lips were parched and
cracked. “It is the only way through.”
There was no thought. I turned to run back up
the stairs. It would have been foolish. I probably would have slipped and
fallen to my death. But suddenly I knew that would be preferable to taking one
step further toward the monument below.
Edmund caught my wrist before I could flee.
His grip was inescapable, holding me still as easily as a father restrains his
child.
“I’m sorry,” he said.
I swung at him but he caught my other wrist,
then drove a hammering blow into my gut. I doubled over, the breath knocked out
of me. As I gasped I felt his hand on the side of my head. He slammed it into
the cliff face, and everything faded away.
***
I awoke to the blurry sight of the distant
rainbow stars. Something soft was beneath me. Hushed voices spoke nearby.
Someone moved.
“Ah, yes,” came a woman’s voice. “He is awake.
I am terribly sorry that it had to come to violence. I do so prefer consent.”
I heard her come nearer with a whisper of
fabric. Boots shifted somewhere behind her. I tried to lift my head.
“No, my dear,” said the woman. “You must
recover. Take your time - we have all that we need.”
Her face floated into my view and light
fingers touched the bloody side of my head. She drew her fingers down my cheek
to paint a trio of cold, wet lines.
“Clear your mind,” she said.
The suggestion was powerful. I strove to obey
as if shaking off a concussion was a choice. Somehow, it worked, and her blurry
face sharpened.
She was beauty.
Both real and a dream, her loveliness was at
once visceral and unfocused. Were her eyes hooded and dark? Or wide, bright and
blue? Her hair might have been a cascade of molten chocolate or a thin curtain
of gold. Her appearance did not cease shifting as she studied me, and her voice
followed suit.
She helped me sit up and I saw the rest of
her.
Shoulders wide and strong. A full bust beneath
a dress like silver mist. Or was she small and dainty? Were her hips low and
nearly straight, with only the gentle suggestion of a curve, or were they wide
with the promise of children?
Was it me that could not decide?
No, I realized. She was searching me out in
the same way the apparitions above had done. But she was more powerful. She
would not be denied.
“What is it that you want, Shane?” she asked,
voice husky and low.
No, it was high and light, plaintive but
inviting like a lonely flute.
“I can be anything you wish. This place can be
anywhere.”
I couldn’t have spoken if I wanted to. I’d
finally understood why Edmund had brought me down here. There was no escape.
There was no way through. His mistress had set him to this. He served her and
her alone. But she had used him up.
With effort that set a fire in my mind, I tore
my gaze from the woman and saw Edmund. He looked even worse than before. There
were leprous spots on the skin of his arms and face, and but a wisp of
colorless hair remained on his head. His back was hunched and his mouth was
covered in sores. He caught me looking and turned away in shame.
Then the woman’s burning cold fingers turned
my face back to hers.
“What is it, my love?” she asked. “What will
set your soul aflame for me?”
She captured my eyes with hers and I felt the
digging in my mind.
“Where is it, darling? Let go. Give it to me
and I will multiply it a thousand fold for you. Is it pursuit? Tradition? Is it
eagerness and animal abandon? Fear?”
She leaned in closer. I could smell her. Even
her scent was overwhelming. Sweat. Cinnamon. Lavender. Soap. Blood.
“Youth? Age? All you have to do is tell me.
There is nothing I cannot give you.”
She shuddered as if chilled, then startled and
froze. A smile spread on her lips, both naked and painted as red as my blood.
“Ah, there it is,” she moaned. “How loyal you
are.” She chuckled. “She is brunette. Her hair waves and it is always frizzy.
She complains but you find it endearing. She is tall but not taller than you.”
The woman’s appearance continued to shift. She
took a deep breath and came closer to me. She put her hands on my shoulders and
guided me onto my feet.
“Her face is delicate but for her lips. Wide
mouth. Large teeth. She hates those too but her smile melts your heart anyway.”
The digging in my mind ached like a migraine.
Her visage and form changed more and more rapidly… and settled on something
familiar that was finally coherent enough to identify.
Larissa.
Brown eyes. Sad but bright. The wrinkle to the
left of her mouth from that sardonic smirk of hers. Her long, pianist’s fingers
still grasped my shoulders, possessive.
“I knew you’d come back,” she said. We stood
in the door to her home. Vince the chocolate labrador watched us happily from
the tile floor inside, wagging his tail.
I knew that it wasn’t her, but mercy… it
sounded like her and my heart hammered as violently as the moment I’d fallen in
love. The house smelled right. Even the dog’s panting was just as I remembered.
“I knew you didn’t really mean to leave.”
A sound escaped my lips but I couldn’t find
words. I’d been reduced to a babe, with only half-formed syllables to express
myself. As with the former apparitions, I knew I shouldn’t speak to her. I knew
I shouldn’t look.
But it was too late. I had looked already, and
her eyes had captured mine.
I wanted to look. I wanted to hear.
Because her voice was a song, because I hadn’t
meant to leave, I’d just been a fool. The dust storm was a sign - it had
stopped me just in time. The night would have passed, reason would have
returned to me, and I would have gone back to her. Back forever. I would have
done anything she wished then, just to remain with my love.
But now she was here. She’d come for me. Come
to save me. Come to claim me.
She stood a mere foot from me, dressed not in
a diaphanous, revealing nightgown as the last apparition had been, nor in the
shifting fashions of Edmund’s mistress, but…
Mistress. This was not Larissa. I’d known it.
I thought that for a moment I hadn’t cared.
She looked like her, sounded and smelled like
her. She would feel like her.
“Does anything else really matter?” she asked.
She pressed in close and stared into my eyes.
Did it? This Larissa would give me whatever I
wanted. We were mere moments away from endless, perfect love.
“All you have to do is pledge to never leave
me,” she said. “Call me queen, and be utterly mine. It is what you want.”
“What I want,” I repeated. My mouth was like
sandpaper.
What I want.
I had something to express that, didn’t I? A
trinket, valuable, but not too fancy. I had planned to give it to Larissa
before Christmas. I had hoped to hear her say one devastatingly simple word.
Yes.
“Yes,” I said, and Larissa smiled beautifully
at me. “I wanted her to say yes.”
Larissa’s brow furrowed.
The velvet box was in my pocket still. It
hadn’t been long since I’d struck out on the road, and I hadn’t been able to
let go of it yet. I found it, held it before me as Larissa removed her hands
from me and backed away a step.
I opened the box. Within, a thin golden ring
with the biggest diamond I’d been able to afford.
Larissa’s reaction confused me. She’d said
she’d give me anything. Why was she not beaming at the ring?
“No,” she breathed. “I will not submit. You
cannot…”
I saw her panic. Her fingers flexing,
shoulders tense. Larissa always flicked her eyes to the left during an attack.
Left and back, left and back.
“You cannot ask this of me,” she said, and
backed away another step. “P-put that away. You don’t need it. We don’t need
it.”
“I do,” I said. I’d forgotten that she wasn’t
really Larissa, but it didn’t change my heart. “I love you, Larissa. More than
anything on the planet. I need you, but it has to be right. We have to do it
right.”
“No, no, no,” she said. I couldn’t understand
why she’d promise me my dreams and then renege. Her foot struck the dog as she
backed into the house and Vince slunk away with his tail between his
legs.
I noticed that the back wall of the living
room was gone. In its place was a gold-plated throne.
But that wasn’t right either, was it?
The shining gold was a veil. There were shapes
beneath.
“Larissa, please,” I said. “I won’t fail you.”
But she was shaking her head, backing away.
The living room was gone. The impossibly large cavern loomed around us.
Pinprick rainbow lights flickered violently.
I fell to my knees then, out of words, and
held up the engagement ring from the edge of despair. I knew now that Larissa
wouldn’t take it. History would repeat. Why had I bothered to try again anyway?
But I had no other recourse. Without this, all
I could do was move on and start over.
“NO!” Larissa screamed. I felt the force of it
and fell on my back. The ring slipped from my fingers and I heard it rolling
and bouncing down the steps of the pyramid. A sharp, cold wind blew across the
top of the pyramid and thousands of rainbow candles blew out. The only light
left was a sickly orange from the monument’s crystal stanchions.
But the structure was no longer bright and
gold. It was grey, rutted stone, wet and mouldy. What had been a bed was a cold
slab. The altar was shaped the same, but had also lost its royal veneer.
And the throne was not regal at all, neither
metal nor stone, but a horrid thing made of the skulls and bones of men. Chalk
white mortar held the structure together and blood-painted symbols stained each
skull’s forehead.
I came to my senses and panic took me. I
scrambled away from the throne of death, but a figure rushed to my side and
stopped me.
“It’s okay, Shane,” said Edmund. He still
looked and sounded horrible, but there was a light in his eyes now. “She fled.
I don’t know what you did, but she fled.”
Ed smiled and looked up at the black vault
over our heads. Then he looked back down at me, beaming.
“I think we’re free! What did you do, man?”
“She… she was searching for what I wanted
most. I asked Larissa to marry me but she… she said no, again.”
Edmund let out a horrible laugh. It sounded
sick, but somehow real joy rang through.
“Oh that’s rich, man. That’s great. I never
would have thought of it - you’re a genius!” He slapped me on the back and the
sting dispelled some of my shock. I still wasn’t entirely sure what had
happened. “Come on, get up. Let’s get out of here in case she comes back.”
“I don’t understand,” I admitted.
“I may not either,” he said. There were stairs
leading down to the base of the pyramid and Edmund was leading me toward them.
“But my guess is you asked for the one thing she couldn’t do. Or wouldn’t do.
And if you couldn’t make a deal, she had no power. She may never have felt
helpless before - she wouldn't know how to handle it - so she fled.”
I didn’t have anything to say to that. I was
no genius. If anything had saved me, it had been grace. I thought of the
engagement ring, lost on the steps of the pyramid.
I decided to leave it there.
Returning by the way we’d come was a slog, but
I was too bewildered and exhausted to be tense anymore.
The climb up the long stairs was painful, but
Ed’s torchlight was a greater comfort than the rainbow lights had been.
The cave system where I’d narrowly resisted
the glamours of those apparitions seemed to be empty. Either they had been a
part of the mistress’s power or else they had no confidence that they could
tempt us again.
Perhaps they’d been lesser spirits, hoping to
feed off the mistress’s dregs.
The tunnels, the dungeon, and the complex were
all the same. Going through the crawling tunnel, I let myself space out and not
worry, and time seemed to go by much faster. The return trip from anywhere is
often like that. Lack of anticipation, I suppose.
When we finally reached Ed’s sub-basement, I
hadn’t even bothered to wonder how we’d get back in. The answer was simple as
it could be - the way was open. I didn’t ask whether Ed had a way to open it,
whether it had been some strange spell, or whether it was tied to the
mistress’s presence. I just stepped through.
Ed himself still looked terrible. Worse in the
electric light, in many ways. But his back was straighter and he smiled often.
There was a life in his eyes I hadn’t seen even before our night of surreality.
We limped into Ed’s kitchen and guzzled cold
water. He offered me food but I declined.
Then he told me to go get some rest in my
room, but I couldn't imagine sleeping in there. I wanted nothing to do with
anything the mistress had ever controlled.
The dust storm had quieted but not cleared
entirely. I wouldn’t be able to get a tow until morning, so I had to stay
somewhere. I decided that a rocking chair on Ed’s front porch was far enough
from the madness for now, and though I expected to stare into the night for
hours and probably not sleep at all, I think I was out cold within minutes.
In the morning the storm had settled.
Lingering dust painted the sunrise red and the sky remained slightly hazy. It
was probably as clear as it would get.
Ed called me a tow truck from Millville and
waited with me at the side of the road. We leaned together against the white
picket fence.
“Still planning to stick around Millville for
a bit?” he asked.
“Yeah,” I said. “I’ve been a little too busy
to adjust the plan.”
He laughed. “Well, maybe I’ll see you at the
grocery some time.”
“Maybe we’ll grab a beer.”
“Sounds good, man.”
The tow truck arrived. I shook Ed’s hand and
his eyes thanked me. I didn’t think I deserved it, but I also didn’t want to
invalidate his feelings. I hoped he’d leave the place. I prayed that his
mistress had abandoned him when she fled from me. I’d probably come back to
check on him whether I saw him in town or not.
The handshake was firm, and I used it to pull
Ed into a hug. We didn’t know each other well, but now we were comrades of a
sort. I thought the hug was in order, and Ed did not resist.
When we stood apart he turned his head to the
side and I caught him wiping his eyes. I pretended not to notice.
The tow man hooked my Jeep up swiftly and
invited me to hop in his truck. I gave Ed one last nod of farewell, then
settled in for the drive to Millville.